Bliss is back! Level 1 Round 2

[Pure Bliss]

Hallo all you amazing Brain Evers,
I have decided to recommence Brain Ev from beginning to end.
So far I am on the first week. So much is happening that I actually need to write a daily account. This may bore you guys, but if I don't take careful note, I miss the subtle changes and that leads to all sorts in misinterpretation - just notice how many people seem to discontinue their sessions. Forcing myself to write on the forum keeps my mind alert and on track.

Once again timing is perfect and I have a perfect sequel to Anna Wise in my hands. Two days ago I was scaring myself with beta frazzle generated stories about all my aches and pains. Now I understand what is going on.

So I am back in full alpha and some theta. Bring it on. These are the frequencies of healing and believe me, I AM HERE TO BE HEALED.

More tidbits later.
Blissfully yours, Pure Bliss

[Tiffany]

Yay, welcome back! 

I really enjoyed my "review" of the program once I finished.  I experienced deeper relaxation than I had been able to achieve the first time around.

-Tiffany

[Nikaya]

Yay! I think a second time through is a great idea! I'm definitely taking my good sweet time getting through the first time, but I plan to do the same. I think that all of the levels have so much potential, but we miss out on some of that simply getting the hang of how to "let go" and not fight it. I'm going to try to read/post more now that my routine is becoming a bit more stable, and look forward to seeing how Round 2 goes for you! I don't know if you were already planning to do this, or how difficult it would be to compare to old notes/posts, but I'd really be interested in any differences you notice between the first vs second time going through each level if you feel like commenting. In return, I'll try not to disappear from the forums for such a long time again

~Nikaya

[Pure Bliss]

Level 1, week 1, round 2
Big lesson for me here. I didn't write down what happened each day (because so much happened) and now the flavour is lost and I can't reproduce it. What a pity! What to say, and how to express it adequately? I think I shall bung stuff down, and then take the liberty to go back and edit. Better in a post than not at all.

Insomnia returns. It is a bit scary to find myself sleeping just a couple of hours, usually I sleep as soon as I go to bed, but wakefulness returns between 1 and 2 a.m. I then get a some deep, refreshing sleep when dawn breaks at about 6 a.m. Not wonderful because we usually Brain Ev from 6 a.m. The insomnia isn't the same as pre-Brain Ev where I tormented myself with useless, circular thoughts, rehashing events or conversations.... yawn! yawn! The content of which would put anyone to sleep, yet managed to keep me awake! This time it is beta-stuff alright, as I am wide awake, but it is worry-based. My mother (Alzheimers) has taken two or three serious steps backward, and as Best Beloved and I are the only carers, this tends to raise my anxiety level enough to dose off, but wake and lie with feelings of grief for her and what she is going through, wondering what might come next, what actions we can/should take to keep her safe...

As Sadhguru (I'll be talking more about him as he is my current literature and he is amazing) says, we need to see not just the events (insomnia here) but the spaces between (i.e. how much else is just fine with me during the rest of my night/day). Interestingly Jim Robbins "Symphony in the Brain" - the other book I was reading with a fine comb - refers to brainwave training and neurofeedback, and points out that anxious types and ADD/ADHD people, and depressives, all tend to have intent, sharp focus on details and they miss out the spaces between. So therapy consists of noticing the No-thing in between. The idea seems to be we get hyper about something, lists of things to do, guilt trips, dissatisfaction bla, bla, blah and instead of taking a mental holiday, we just keep playing the same old thoughts, even when we could indulge in other brain activities (pleasure, relaxation, focused work, concentration, creativity etc.).

Time to stop as I need to get ready to visit our stroke-friend. So I will make a note to myself what I intend to write.
Synchronicity - Sadhguru - quote site to download Kriya meditation - "I am not the mind" on the inbreath, "I am not the body" on the outbreath. Out of body experience. Then the green book (title?), on how to stop mind chatter in meditation. It works. Visiting empty spaces in my mind. Starting to know the 'signposts' of how to calm my brainwaves (Anna Wise), and I am getting to feel safe in empty mental space. Limitless.

So bear with me guys. I'll have to rewrite this.
I wish you all a perfectly still mind during your session. With love, Pure Bliss

[Pure Bliss]

Bliss back again.
I feel guilty as I am not posting my new insights and the fruits of my learning on the forum. So much has happened, and I don't quite know how to catch up.
Also the forum seems pretty slow..... is it due to the Christmas festivities?
I had a spectacular meditation with Brain Ev level 1 this morning, and my mind is teeming with thoughts and possibilities.
I will post when there are less people around me.
Wishing you all an amazing session today, and everyday,
Purest Bliss

[Autumn Leaves]

Hi Bliss and everyone else

it's good to see you're still posting - that is for the less articulate of us (me namely). I've just completed Level 1 and can say that I have thoroughly enjoyed the tranquility and depth of being I was able to achieve in the meditations each day.

I have noticed over the past 4 weeks, that I have been able to recall a lot more of the detail of my dreams (or that I'm having more dreams - and many of them are quite lucid and unusual in some cases, with me clearly being an observer). I also noticed that I've been able to focus more on my regular meditative and qigong practices, and that my qi has been stronger.

I work as a Remedial Therapist specialising in myofascial release, craniosacral  and polarity therapies and have noticed in this work over the past 4 weeks, that I seem to be much more aware of being able to hold my presence and stillness during the treatments even while my client is conversing and I am responding.

Am about to start Level 2 and can't wait to see what that brings.

Pure Bliss in response to your questions last time, and I'm really sorry I haven't responded earlier - I'm not aware of any other people on this forum who are from down under and who might be an Indigenous Australian. Having said that, some of my clients are Indigenous Australians and they all have a wonderful, felt sense of spirit and their place in the Universe.

I can also say that I was lucky enough to grow up in the Northern Territory of Australia, born in Alice Springs and spending most of my childhood and early teenage years (a long time ago now) in remote communities with many beautiful Indigenous Australian people.

I also worked for many years in Indigenous Affairs in the Northern Territory and Western Australia before moving into my current and quite different level of service.

in terms of the material I have worked with from Learning Strategies - I have most of their programs which I quite enjoy, but my absolute favourites are Chun Yi Lin and Spring Forest Qigong and Jeddah Mali and her Seeds of Enlightenment series, both of which I continue to practice on a daily basis.

[Pure Bliss]

Hallo Autumn Leaves!
Wow! You have answered my soul's call. I shall contact you in a PM. I cannot believe this. I put out and you answered. Hey, this stuff works!
Rest assured, I will stay in touch.
May your journey be one of bliss and enlightenment, Pure Bliss

[Pure Bliss]

I must commit this to words before the experience and sensations disperse.

Run up:
Yesterday I was sensitive, reactive, and unsettled in myself. Felt like I should be doing something.... but what? I was also incredibly clumsy. I dropped a dish of food out of the fridge. I knocked over the dogs' evening meal. I knocked over a stash of magazines that have been safe from me for at least 8 months. And something else which now escapes me.

Synchonicity 1:
Waiting for Best Beloved to finish up before we went to bed, I chanced to see Sadhguru's 'Mystic's Musings' and flicked open a page. I started reading the top of the page. It was something about energy - readers of my posts will know of my growing interest in energy, chakras, vibration, sounds etc. Totally out of any context I read a sentence on the lines of,
"and this can cause a person to lose their energy, it leaves them and doesn't come back. As a result that person's energy becomes unbalanced." I felt a kind of whump in my solar plexus (heart chakra ), a slight wobble and dizziness and I knew this to be true for me. My truth. Once I accepted it as true for me, an insight, a memory followed of a particularly ghastly experience, a betrayal, my incredulity, and the distinct sensation of vaporising out of my body. When I got home and met family, I described it as if I had been raped (metaphorically), that my body was totally numb, I couldn't feel myself, and I was in deep shock. My sense of trust was violated. [I see now an emerging pattern of people letting me down, I build something important up, and people who should be reliable/trustworthy, turn traitor and allow others to destroy what I have constructed.]

6 a.m.
Awake and eager for my morning's session. I started with Mary Maddox's chakra strengthening. This guided meditation (free, and I have given the link twice already) lasts 13 minutes and gets me settled and into a nice, suggestive alpha state.

Next I listened to my 20 mins of Sadhguru's guided kriya yoga meditation. The Isha volunteer told me to do it once a day, twice if I can, for 48 days. The first time I listened to it (a few weeks ago) I emerged from my body and became enormous. I could look down on my body from my great size and it seemed about the size of my little finger. I was huge and very, very peaceful.

This morning I reacted to his chanting at the end - something I have previously not been able to relate to, as I neither speak Hindi, nor am I an experienced meditator. The sensation was indescribable, but it happened nonetheless. It transported me to a different vibration.

The third and last stage of my morning meditation was the Brain Ev session.  I rested half an hour between the Kriya yoga meditation. Before even starting I felt very alpha-ish (relaxed and hypnotic). I mulled a little on Tewald (Tom), whose post on boredom /set an intention or not? intrigued me. "Well, Pure Bliss: Do I set an intention prior to Brain Ev-ing or not?". Sadhguru's words returned to mind about a person permanently losing energy as a result of certain experiences (in my case of being personally violated as a person I totally trusted and invested in, told pure lies to a committee that caused them to believe I was fraudulent and dishonest). So I set an intention. "May I reach a place of understanding during this session so that I may heal and regain my lost energy". And, as with all intentions, I left it with that. Like Tewald, I faced a choice: either I could play games and remain outside the 'incident', or I could let go and see what happened.

In brief (ha!ha! am I even capable of being brief! ), I had a regular session, some drifting, some chatter which I thanked and let go, some space, some awareness and some unconsciousness. And again whump! It felt like a light rowing boat nudged up against me (i.e. like something docking into me). Again I felt a lot of turbulent, excitable, unstable energy going on. In alpha I mused as to whether this was the lost energy docking into me again. Then a while later I had a hazy vision (hazy means theta state) of a skyline with bare winter trees all along it, except one section was devoid of trees. There was a space. And as I saw the space, invisible hands started to place bundles of trees until the skyline was intact and complete.

After the Brain Ev session, I lay calmly mulling through what had leaked out of hidden delta and crossed the bridge into alpha consciousness.

My intuitions were
a) setting an intention when we genuinely want insight is ok.
b) I must trust my inner knowing and go with it. In a sense I am a victim of the rational, scientific, proof-based Western World. I do get answers, I am developing the spiritual side of me, yet I constantly subject it all to doubt, and usually relegate it to the back of a shelf where other unimportant stuff is stored.
c) it is possible that I am ready/willing to regain my lost self/energy/soul. And it docked in, both physically as a bump that made me jerk (boat symbol), and mentally as in losing a gap in my horizon (treescape metaphor).
d) And to cap it all, I go online and read Autumn Leaves post above. Synchronicity 2. Do you see what this woman practices? See her energy focus. And she has 50,000 years of Australia as root stock. I was close to tears reading it. For 25 years I have been putting out to contact a native Australian as my spiritual path has business in that culture. When pregnant with my son (he is 19 now) we listened to a lot of Aboriginal music (canned stuff, all I could lay my hands on at the time). He came out of the womb making Dreamtime noises, he sounded exactly like a didgeridoo, Best Beloved and I were both awestruck. His first 18 months of pre-verbal communication sounded like the utterances of Indigenous Australians we observed dancing near Kuranda, Queensland.

Now, I am still quite spacey. Lots to get done today. So time to get physical and root this newly docked energy back inside me!

As always I wish all you amazing fellow travellers a wonderful Brain Ev session which brings joy, peace and important insights. Salut, Pure Bliss

[Dreamer]

Pure Bliss,

Some of what you wrote about 'losing energy' and how you seemed able to have it returned during your session reminded me of when I went on a Soul Journey with a shaman I know. He explained that certain traumas can break of a bit of the soul which is then left behind, and a soul journey is to go look for those pieces and bring them back, to ultimately reintegrate it as a whole.

After my soul retrieval I remembered a lot of the incident that caused the loss of that bit. I also know that I have many other bits that are missing, but never thought I could use the Brain Ev sessions for soul journeying. I will have to try that some time in the future, possibly when I am going through again as you are now.

Thank you as always for your wonderful and insightful posts.

Blessings
Dreamer

[NickR]

Pure Bliss I always enjoy reading your posts. I have learned something else today.

Thanks

Nick

 

[Nikaya]

You know Pure Bliss...I can't help but feel like you're always two steps ahead of me on insights and those oh-so-great ah-ha moments. Sometimes it's frustrating because I somehow expect myself to understand all concepts of the vast universe and our existence in some random split second that I keep waiting for (haha yeah...I know). And sometimes...more often than not thanks to your fantastic combination of eloquence, honesty with yourself and willingness to bare the results of that honesty to the rest of us...I get these pits in my gut and know that you have somehow articulated what I've been feeling on some level but been unable discuss even with myself. When it comes to seeking mental, emotional and spiritual growth I am plagued with enough inner conflict and cognitive dissonance to occupy a lifetime of simply arguing with myself about everything I can possibly conceptualize. But then there is this whole other level that I haven't run into until now in reading your posts...and the closest I can come to describing this feeling is in stating "where the heck did that come from and how long has it been hiding there?" You mentioned recently-ish your past experience of a past betrayal that obviously cut you very deeply.

What I'm struggling with at this moment is that my normal, overwhelming sense of empathy is nowhere to be found. That isn't to say that I don't sympathise...and I can't imagine what kind of pain that must have caused. In fact...I think that's exactly what I'm struggling with. I can't imagine it. I can't grasp the notion, can't internalize the pain (pardon the completely incorrect terminology, but I don't exactly know where I'm going with this). I think what it comes down to...is that I can't remember the last time I felt close enough to or trusted someone enough that I could have even felt that level of disappointment or betrayal. I always expect everyone to let me down. And not in a "whoa is me" sort of way. But more of a "that's just how people are...I'll be the best I can be for others and myself, but not expect the same of everyone else sort of way. Trying to describe it, it sounds so hardened. But I don't feel like a completely hardened person. Just a loving person with zero expectations and lack of ability to trust others. Hmmmmm. I can't remember the last time I felt such complete lack of emotion when it came to something deeply personal in any way, shape or form. I'm not sure what to do with this realization yet as I'm not sure....well, of anything often times. In fact, coming to terms with that lack of uncertainty is probably what's helping me sleep at night. Excepting the last couple nights, I have been sleeping quite deeploy about 75% of the time since I started level 2 of BrainEv. The funny thing is that when my random cluttery thoughts start harrassing me there isn't any particularly deep or introspective-sounding thought processes that occurs. It's more of a "I'm pretty sure there's nothing I can do about that at this very moment that can't wait until mornin" borderline apathy that occurs. I feel like a cliche Libra sometimes, swinging across the opposit sides of the pendulum in hopes of slowing to a balance in the middle somewhere down the road. Oh but as to where I was going with this...I can't remember to say the least.

All I can say is, to be perfectly honest, I don't understand and can't relate...and don't hurt for you like I normally would. But in the last few months of BrainEving I've come to realize that empathizing at my normal level isn't necessarily a helpful or healthy thing. So instead of feeling guilty for not being able to co-burden your pain from your past experiences (which I'm pretty sure wouldn't be helful and you wouldn't want anyway), all I can say is this: I'm SO happy for the growth you have experienced over the last several months, and though I am not personally agonizing over your pain I do care deeply and hope that you are able to find some peace and resolution with the person who hurt you - and maybe more importantly the feelings that you experienced throughout that betrayal (not to mention every other less-than-perfect thing that life has thrown at you). I guess what I'm trying to say, in a less than beautiful way, is that I appreciate you, have grown so much as a result of you, and hope for nothing less than peace and pure bliss (no pun intended haha) for you and your Best Beloved. You are trulely an amazing person and I feel so honored to be observing your journey in the slightest way and feel both inspired and hopeful that I can go nowhere but up from my current state of being from this point forward. So...thanks for being you! And don't stop! And I hope I didn't either lose you or sound cold or heartless in any way in that post...because I'm very much "in my head" lately (more mentally driven, less emotionally driven...which is a nice change of pace but I'm still struggling to find that balance).

Love, peace and blessings,
Nikaya

[Pure Bliss]

Replies to you generous souls who took the time to give feedback and encouragement and share your journey with me.

@Dreamer. You are right. I agree totally. It seems that every ancient culture had its ways of regaining lost energy. Shamen being one example. In Ireland I found evidence of amazing spiritual culture, definitely linked to solar and lunar calendars - I even considered writing my MA thesis on this..... but that is on hold until our house sells and I get a bite of the financial freedom cherry. In the Celtic case, Christianity wiped out all but the bare bones of. However I was shown a place that in my view would be a World Heritage Site and the energy there is extremely powerful. I have started dabbling in some Buddhist/Hindu stuff - very powerful too and I will give details in another post. Suffice it to say, that those of us privileged to have access to the luxury of the Western World, also suffer the consequences of living in a science-based, rational environment. As I write this I realise this may insult those who find solace and growth in the modern religions (Christianity et al.). No insult intended. However for me these have never had the slightest attraction.

@NickR. Glad to hear it, Nick. I have spend a couple of decades trying to find something that delivers positive change consistently - and very affordably - with not much success. Western Gurus seem to have healthy bank balances and exceptional marketing skills.... (I know this is a generalisation as I have not explored every route) .... which led me to Brain Ev. I can experiment and learn in the privacy of my home, and the changes have been significant - and apparently of long/longer term effect than I had ever hoped. So if my mental musings are of support or impetus to you, well that is the icing on the cake!

@Nikaya. I doubt I am any steps ahead of you, or anyone else for that matter. Sure, things are happening for me because I am putting in the time and energy. If anything I share resonates with you, then we can rejoice in the marvels of the internet which allows us to meld our paths at will!
I was fascinated by your concern that your usual high reserves of empathy seem to have gone awol. Nikaya, this is fascinating stuff, and to this end I wrote a separate thread on delta, healing, empathy and loss of boundaries. If what I suspect is true, it appears that Level 4 is supporting incursions into your deep unconscious (delta realm), and your beliefs about empathy, trust, reaching out or withdrawing (i.e. personal boundary stuff), healing (the massage experience you shared once) are reformatting as they meld with other brainwave-frequency mind-states. So here, once more, is evidence of whole-brain thinking, as beta (the analyst/thinker) gets to access fact, fiction, fear, genius etc which resides in alpha, theta and delta realms.
Trust is an issue for you. For me too. I have been very hurt and publicly humiliated (and I am working to heal the effects of that: muscle tension in upper torso, post traumatic stress disorder bla bla bla). I guess it is this energy frequency in me that you perceive and tune in to. So not only are you a healer, you are psychic, empathetic, honest and supportive too. Not bad, I'd say. And just imagine, Nikaya, this is you in your raw, untrained state. What you are capable of with self-knowledge and insight could be well worth further effort and investigation.
I do so hope that the post I wrote on delta and boundary issues - all from Anna Wise, I hasten to add, lest someone think I claim this intellectual ownership - will be of assistance to you.
I wouldn't fret about not getting Brain Ev sessions done every day - it is obvious from my side of the fence, that even irregular excursions into alpha, theta and delta are having significant effects. If I were you, I would get Anna Wise's book/s. These will help demystify the experiences you are having. And you have cause for cheer, rather than get your wires crossed and beat yourself up.
Onwards and upwards!

With deepest appreciation and gratitude to you all for making the effort to interact with me!
Hugs always, Pure Bliss

[Pure Bliss]

This is my second post on this thread today.
I didn't want to mix comments to others in with my personal evolutionary journey.
This is ALL ABOUT ME! There aren't may spaces where one can waffle on all about oneself!

Here goes.

Like many Brain Ev users on the forum, I believed that the first levels were 'small stuff' leading us to greater things in higher levels. Now, on round two, where I have nothing to prove or to loose, I have returned to dabble, play and fully experience Level 1, but with all senses open this time around.

What is really going on for me?

Currently, Level 1 Round 2 is mostly about ME (in its widest sense) interacting and getting to experience my body more fully. The 'body experience' began at Level 4/5 where I learned to 'heal' severe muscle tension in my head, neck and shoulders. How to 'fix' myself was pure intuition. It wasn't surprising I could intuit things, as levels 4, 5 and 6 deliver access to deeper frequencies such as theta and delta.

It does intrigue me, however, that on my return to Level 1 the 'body story' continues to evolve and unravel. Right now, healing myself seems to be the dominant theme. I am aware of how tight my upper torso is - though my head is way better and I no longer get 'Brain Ev headaches'. Lying in bed, while I consciously relax to Mary Maddox's soothing chakra energy meditation, I feel the extreme tightness and know this is where I must learn to decontract (decontracter, interestingly is the French word for 'to relax'!). It is clear to me that I have carried this muscle tension around unknowingly for years and years. Just tapping into the sheer tightness of it, I am equally aware that I need to heal this - the root causes of my clamping up tight - or the future consequences will not be savoury.

Herewith the delta insight begins (DESPITE BEING ON LEVEL 1)! I am now in touch with tension. My inner knowing tells me this was probably once a coiled tension, as one would have in a fight or flight experience, a preparedness to do battle or run away and live to fight another day. So the underlying tightness is a correct body function in response to (currently unknown) stressors. Hwever my body feedback tells me that this 'coiled tension' is now locked in place, making my whole upper body stiff, tight, and this seriously undermines peaceful and refreshing sleep. How do I drift into comfortable la-la land when my body continuously signals the need to be tense and on the alert?!

The insight magic continues.
1) Just as I was getting interested in energy (i.e releasing trapped energy in my upper torso as well as regaining lost energy at a soul level), a forum user posted the Mary Maddox link. At zero cost, I focus on each chakra for 13 minutes of guided meditation each day. After the session, I am relaxed enough to be able to 'handle' the full-on Brain Ev session.

2)I am also back in touch with Sadhguru, whom I met on the IONS website. His free talks really caught my attention a year ago. Recently I went to his site and downloaded the free Kriya (energy) yoga meditation. He is a sage, and as I appear to have trust issues (see above with Nikaya), I trust him and all manner of powerful things happen to me during meditations with him. Yesterday I signed up for his Inner Engineering on-line course. [Note this is NOT a recommendation - yet. I have still to engage fully with his stuff.]

3) The right books keep appearing and I can access them for next to nothing via Amazon - secondhand of course. So my personal interests are not robbing the bank. I have a whole stash to savour in the weeks after Christmas. I notice knowledge is about varying perspectives. I will read the same data but seen from a mystic's perspective, a Buddhist perspective, a psychological perspective, an environmental perspective etc. (A kind of whole-brain thinking!)

I have another tool for insight now. Brain Ev.
I am more confident with Brain Ev as a program. I have learned to recognise when I am in different brainwave states (thanks to dear, dear Wise Anna). So my sessions are more eventful, more rewarding as I can beta-ise (bring into beta) the insights that emerge. Drat, ignorance is a dreadful thing. First time round I was having insights and images and energy inputs, but I told them to stop! I muddled them with day-dreaming and active thinking in sessions! Arggghhh!

Last night - yes awake again - but I am now making friends with this dark, silent, undisturbed time, making it ME time - I located awful levels of tension in my neck and shoulders. I could release that tension through various movements which I intuited. Subsequently I was prompted to do a foot massage which felt wonderful and my feet looked much better/altered for the loving treatment.

And then I felt so so so comfortable and well in bed, so I meditated. My own meditation this time, no entrainment, no music, just ME, joined by my mind, my body and my spirit. Now I recognise brainstates I find I can go there at will. (Read Wise Anna if you seriously wish to learn this skill). I chose to visit my chakras whilst in alpha and theta. I saw amazing images, colours, visionary stuff. Sometimes I got all medical and I could 'visit' my bones, tendons, cartilage (I worked on the tendonitis in my elbow specifically); I also looked at my heart and there was a 'nubble' (cannot describe) on the arteries emerging from the top which I stroked and dissolved off. After that I felt/saw/sensorised my heart chakra filling, welling up. It was even a bit emotional! It felt great! Weird stuff, I admit. But worth the trip, I assure me. (Freudian slip here! This should read "I assure you!", so now we are both assured! )

Then I thought of those I know/love with health issues who need healing. I immediately had an insight. I was not to 'heal' them. It may not be their desire, their path, their destiny, so not mine to interfere with. So I just centred myself and supplied 'energy', energy for each of them to use to heal themselves if they so wished. I dealt with two people, my friend lying in hospital after a seisure related to his stroke, and then my brother, recently diagnosed with lymphoma (early cancer of the immune system). I offered/delivered 'energy' and after that I was tired. I stopped and subsequently slept.

That is it for now.
As always, I wish everyone who reads this or uses Brain Ev to make giant strides in their own personal evolutionary journey. Blissfully yours, Pure Bliss

[Pure Bliss]

Level 1 Round 2 Continuing Experiences.

So much is going on. It is hard to find time to post now as I can hardly keep up with the events unfolding. Also having children home for Christmas makes taking time more selfish as time with them is precious.

Intense Heat within an Instant.
I shall probably move on to level 2 in January. So I continue with level 1. I have been experiencing instantaneous flashes of heat which arise and abate within seconds throughout the whole  of level 1. It is only in the past week or so that I have become conscious of this rapid heating up. Now I stay in touch with my body and the heat, just letting it be, and experiencing the sense of being too hot. Just to understand and know it better. Accepting what is happening and honouring my body's way of expressing itself. It is another example of my mind reconnecting to my physical being.

Best Beloved & Progress.
He doesn't visit the forum. However the changes in him since starting Brain Ev have been noteworthy and very worthwhile for him.
He used to have energy issues, specifically low energy. He had things to do but little motivation. Since starting in March 2011, I notice how well he uses his time (way better than me!). He gets things done on the house we are restoring to let, and then he comes home and gets a myriad of tasks completed. He is very self-organised and focused and has sufficient energy - I never see him tired.
If he had come across Brain Ev 30 years ago, I genuinely believe his life would have been vastly different. He is achieving so much in a day. When I talk to him, he is surprised (I told you Brain Ev is very subtle and not posting on the forum is a recipe for not noticing major but subtle change!), but does acknowledge he has all the drive, focus and energy he needs now. Brilliant! I wish some of that would rub off on me. I used to be the high-achiever while he looked on from the sidelines. Now he is the do-er, taking bites out of the elephant (to use Nikaya's amazing metaphor) consistently, so we have no elephants left, just a clear path of things to do that are easily achieved.

Commitment to non-consumption of Developmental Tools.
A few years ago I committed to really mastering the projects/programs I undertook in my free time. Not just dabble and move on, but do, learn and experience, give it time and attention to effect the desired change. That was a good decision.

For January 2012 I have selected my new projects.
I am committed to Kriya yoga (a form of meditation) for at least 48 consequtive sessions. It is powerful, and works with helping me see I am not my mind or my body (so what am I, time will tell, but on my first session I had an out of body experience, so I had evidence that I am NOT my body  ). It also works on energy, specifically the chakra at navel level. And sound/vibrations (I had another weird experience, more amazing as I cannot understand the words as I don't speak Hindu, yet it profoundly affected me).  Sadhguru stuff for those interested.

BrainWave Entrainment.
I want to continue my thorough investigation of this field. It works. But what works for me and why? I want to self-medicate using brainwave frequencies and really explode my barriers and limitations.

So I am going to give Les Fehmi and his Open Focus work a real trial run. My full attention and committment. If his research delivers and I achieve competence, my assumption is my insomnia, anxiety, muscle tension are things of the past. When I have integrated and calmed my animal brain (fight or flight reflex), then I can turn to 'higher' realms such as creativity, insight, genius and whole-brained higher functioning.

For anyone interested I shall be posting my experiences - as I continue to 'train my brain' with Brain Ev.

Time to stop now!

As Level 1 and all the alpha stuff

I have also signed up for the Inner Engineering course. Also Sadhguru. More anon as I let Indian philosophy and psychology work its effects on me.

[NickR]

Hi Pure Bliss Glad to see your ever growing momentum. I agree that journalling and or posting to this forum is a neccesity in order to get the best out of this process. As someone who has problems with procrastination and low energy I envy your partners changes.
  I have decided in the New Year to just focus on Brain Ev, Open Focus and maybe one more thing; time permitting. Regarding Open Focus do read the original book it's easy to miss how simple Open Focus is! Interested in the Kriya Meditation by Sadhguru do you have a link to the relevant website?.
  Physically I practise yoga, it has eased my on off back problem.
Have a great Christmas.
Best Wishes
Nick