Bliss in L2 Round 2

[dannyb2140]

Thanks for the wishes.

[NickR]

Bliss thanks for posting this. Your experiences are fascinating. I really must get back into journalling, it so helps with increasing awareness of whats going. I do believe in past lives. No hard and fast facts to back this up, just a strong instinct.
Good to hear whats going on with you.

Nick

[rchoates]

Hi Pure Bliss...that's some very intense stuff!!

I'll tell you my view on past lives: Maybe yes; maybe no, but it doesn't really matter. Anything and everything you need to work on is present in the current life you happen to be living. Whatever is "left behind" or "unfinished" emerges sooner or later in current life to be dealt with.

Very interesting, not only am I a twin as well, but me and my sister (fraternal twins) were born in the tenth month too. This was 1970, and my mother didn't know, nor did the doctor, that she was going to have twins. My sister was discovered after they pulled by out with forceps, and spent the first month of her life in an incubator. She weighted less than two pounds. I had apparently absorbed most of my mother's nutrients. My sister is fine today, but growing up she was always the sick one.

I think you pretty much nailed the meaning of the bull incident. As for the twin situation, that's pretty intense. Have you considered that maybe the fear and the overwhelming sadness are connected to issues stemming from you being the one that lived?? One twin lived, the other died, and now the living twin carries the burden for having lived in the first place?? A feeling of guilt perhaps, that's hard to face?? In the bull incident, when you were the child that died, your parents were very sad, and I can imagine the spirit of that child feeling responsible for her parents' sadness, experiencing guilt for having died and causing the parents so much pain. That emotional theme would play itself out in the twin situation, but now you're the one who lived, which may cause you to feel responsible for your twin's death, or place an enormous burden in your emotional self being alive.

I'm just guessing here, Pure Bliss, hoping something will help. Only you, of course, can figure out what it's all about, as this is a deep and sensitive experience.

Thinking good thoughts for you, Robert

[Pure Bliss]

Hello again, you special, special people,

As you may notice I am back again after a stint in a pretty dirty world inhabited by plenty of low-grade civil servants (I refer to my most recent stint back teaching in a public school which is dominated by a small but intense mafia of "powerful experts" while the rest of us who do our best and dispair at the 50% of minors who roam the corridors and yawn through classes wondering how the hell they'll stay sane in this stifling environment. Cynical? Yes.)

Right. I have posted plenty of stuff for others, so now it is time for me.

There is so much to post.... and I don't know what to prioritise, what to tackle or what to say. Of course I could just dump it into my journal, but this 'public' journaling serves me better, one because I sometimes get feedback, and two, because I link with others who basically are treading a similar path and their journey mirrors mine.

Intimate Encounters with My PTSD Stressor
For New Year my first two 'Wealth' visitors were two offers of replacement teaching. Said no to one, and accepted the other. Nice to be paid AND I wanted to experience life back in the lions' den. I used two BrainEv level 2 sessions back to back during the night when sleep visited another county. The experience was fine and no sign of PTSD being triggered - so I should consider that gone. However the system remains what it is: basically a canning factory where only the most bright or the most determined succeed and the rest get 'processed' back into the working class options of yet more stultifying 'education' with poor working prospects. I viewed plenty of students whose primary method of dealing with 'education' was finding it a place to socialise with their peers. I viewed the lions who roam the staff room wielding their power in corrupt and psychopathic manners. And I viewed the human residue, of teachers wounded, burned out, and self-doubting. Hmmm.

This time my reaction to the human wasteland (I exaggerate, of course) was different. BrainEv and the alpha stuff helped to keep the contented feeling alive within and provided a coping method of inducing smooth calm and unflappability. Perhaps Open Focus is doing something too (too early to tell yet), as my perspective was OFF me and my feelings and ON others and how they fare - so a definite widening of personal horizons. I saw more and suffered less, no I suffered not at all.

I do know this isn't the place for me. Previously this 'not for me' was a sense of failure, rejection. I can't integrate into high school teaching methodology = something is amiss with me, I lack some magic element. This time I have more clarity. The system is anathema to real learning, it deprives average kids of the joys of learning, the buzz of knowledge, it is authoritarian, it is dominated by tunnel-visioned, narrow-minded flotsam of the education world. The no-hopers who fail to teach love of learning and so resort to force-feeding-the-curriculum. And walking around like living saints as they are so "dedicated", "caring", blaa blaa blaa. They join forces and block the tides of progress because they work the system: long holidays, 18 hours of class per week, same old, same old, same old.

Awakening the Kundalini - Unleashing my own tigers
Ganesh suggests I spend a maximum of 5 minutes cleaning my chakras per day in case I unleash the Kundalini. Kundalini.... what the heck is that? I'm a psychologist not a mystic. Powerful stuff he says. Hmmmm. A sneak peek at Wikipaedia tells me that enabling my Kundalini to climb through my chakras might include deep flashes of insight, spiritual awakening, orgasms that radiate along every nerve, tingling, aliveness........ my impatient, consumer-minded Western Mind thinks this sounds just like the kind of tiger I would like to release from its cage RIGHT NOW (apparently it is coiled around and resides in my sacral chakra, where it remains until I am 'ready' to release it).

So, I bide my time, listen to my chakra Guru, and cleanse my chakras daily. Good progress here. My visualisation is extremely clear and I am releasing all sorts of stuff (emotional, physical, past, present and future concerns, aches and pains, and some 'unknown' entities which appear as black sludge or metal schrapnel etc.). Once or twice I forgot to visualise how great I felt after releasing all the inner gunk. But I am surprised at how realistic and personal and visual this 5 minute meditation is. I find that I can release any physical symptom into this golden chakra detergent: a tension ache in my temple just dissolved into a little pile of iron filings and fell to the bottom of my chakra cleaner; a sharp muscle pain in my shoulder melted into some goo that discoloured my cleaning fluid and dissolved.

Kundalini? No real worries. I reckon I am having my share of insights anyway, so why rush. I am enjoying the process.

Theta Symbolism: A Table with a Rucked up Table Cloth
Reading 'Wise Anna' (again!) about how to find blocks, and release them, which entails a visit into insightful theta. This is because I have something hiding inside that doesn't want to show its face on my inner screen. When I look at it, it hides away. When I focus on it, it dissolves from view and sensation, when I look away I can see it again out of the corner of my eye. It hurts too - i.e. there is emotional pain like fear or sadness connected to the picture. So, intellectually, I would like to look it in the eye and know what it is.

She describes the exercises for finding a blockage. I understand it will be a symbol because my theta and delta inputs are most likely non-verbal. Decide to do a brief meditation just to try it for size. Before I do so, a picture forms of a round table with a green, felt table cloth with one edge of the cloth rucked up, just waiting for me to release and smooth the skirt down. Bang! It's there. I can see it. It stays in my view finder. Accept the symbol you get and work with it. Over the alpha bridge and into beta. What on earth is a table with a rucked up cloth all about? It must be some mistake. Take what you get, Pure Bliss, and work with that.

Beta insights and interpretations that sit comfortably with me.
1) Hung Up. Yes, the table cloth is hung up. Stuck. God, it is stuck.
2) Stuck, yes. But so easy to release. All one needs to do is lift the cloth a bit and set the hem free. Smooth it. Let it drop.
3) Hung Up - take one simple smoothing action - Drop It.

So, what's hung up around me? School - yes. Just drop that. Getting out of the system is as simple as smoothing a rucked-up table cloth. Smooth it and the hem falls free. Next time, just say No. No need to hang myself up with a system. Drop it. Be free. Make space for something else.

New Perspective, clinging to table cloth metaphor.
A few tears form. Best Beloved is concerned. No, I say, these are tears, but I feel ok. Tearfulness comes and goes. I just let it happen. Vision of Christ casting the beggars/robbers/merchants out of the temple. [whatever, sorry my Christian culture is dodgy, more a geographical implant than a belief-system for me]. Tears flow and I feel some intense emotion. If a saint and enlightenend One (like Jesus) had to cast beggars, hoodlums, thieves, opportunists and criminals out of his/god's house..... who/what can I clean out? Hmmmm..... and something comes to mind.

My daughter, who happens to frequent the same educational 'canning factory' as I described above, is being tyrannized by an earth sciences Bloop (read teacher). Daughter wants to become a vet and needs excellent results in this subject. Last year they were brilliant - but she was taught by a wonderful teacher - whom Bloop cannot abide (perhaps the fact he was a great teacher doesn't sit well with her = envy, jealousy, enter all her nasty demons). Had a meeting with Bloop. My daughter is an intellectual black hole. She has NO aptitude for earth sciences - which by a strange twist of fate is her favorite subject. I mention that last year her grades were excellent. Bloop almost explodes and insists my daughter will flunk all her exams and most probably have to repeat her baccalaureat (final exam). I look my Bloop-colleage through new found Open Focus lenses and dislike what I see. I don't see a teacher. I see a monster with deep personal issues who spills her unfinished business and punishes students who did well under a different teaching regime.

S***. No other course of action. Daughter needs to get out of this woman's class. Insight!!!! I need to clean out the moral beggars, the educational thieves, the black-mailers from our team. This will be a tough battle. Jesus also fought these opportunists and cast them out. Radical action for me. Take action, woman, before this idiot ruins daughter's career chances. Form a team. Get the good guys - and my best friend here happens to be the vice-principal (he!he!) on my side. Get her into her old teacher's class - yes, he takes two final year groups. Uproot the system. Make new rules. I may not win, but if we maintain the current status this Bloop will continue to downgrade Daughter and that will mean certain failure.

To read the outcome, you will have to wait. In all the stories I like to read, the good guys always triumph. My life has shown me the opposite. Psychopaths are extremely powerful in their own inner-certainty. No doubts for them. Now, at a time of change, I will build a team of good guys, and maybe, maybe Good will prevail.

To finish, back to the table cloth metaphor.
1) Hung up. Yes. So take a peek under the table and see what's there. S***, there hides the Bloop.
2) DON'T smooth the table cloth down too fast. Get this Bloop out of my temple (and my daughter's).
3) In fact, why not remove the table cloth and hang it over a table with nothing hiding under it?

My apologies for the long post. Mental constipation due to a stint in a canning factory.
Glad some of you could identify with the past life stuff. I was afraid to post it as it was irrelevant. There is a lot more where that came from. In fact this has been one of my most successful adventures. Solving dream riddles.

Thanks for reading, if anyone manages to get thus far. 

[Pure Bliss]

Round 2/Level 2 Adventures in Theta Land

What's going on?
1) In dissonance about the forum. I keep wondering if I should drop out of the forum as my round 2 adventures are not really relevant to first time rounders. Am I just muddying the waters for them? Are my experiences better kept in a private journal as I used to? Does anyone read/benefit from my stuff? Maybe I should go off and start my own site and review all the programs as I use them? [Just stating my position here to gain clarity for myself.]
2) Observing my process, analysing and sharing helps anchor it in my mind. Some annoyance flickers within because I don't feel like writing my inner travels (and findings) down at the moment. Why should I do this? It takes so long. Why hang out my laundry in public? Does anyone understand/benefit? Think of the other things I could do instead. Yet, I know in my heart, writing it down makes it difficult for me to lie to myself - and putting it in a public space adds to the moral responsibility of trying to be clear, cutting through stories and self-delusion. So be brave, Pure Bliss, and get this down on paper/screen.

Round 2 Level 2 - it's working at much deeper levels
I am forced to admit that Round 2 is probably more beneficial than round 1 was. Not an easy admission [see the cognitive dissonance erupting?] because a part of me had hoped I could move on to new pastures, having 'completed' the entrainment program. Like Sadhguru and his kriya yoga. Like Open Focus. Like Chakra expertise. The last three I am doing, but with BrainEv, well, time is a serious issue. This has been a difficult three weeks as I have been challenging the status quo, a place that in the past has been extremely traumatic on a professional level - I lost. Really lost. Not much pain during these encounters with people who are abusing their position/power, yet enough to cause discomfort and enable me to reconnect with past pain - and this time use theta to gain acccess to my inner workings. I am now able to enter Theta, remain there, look around and explore. This is yet another milestone, a personal achievement.

My Process of Encountering Theta
So that you can use the same lens or understanding that I am currently using to 'understand' my theta journeys, I am sharing a bit of theta theory from 'Wise Anna'. She really is a great companion. I hope my theta-success encourages you to 'let go' and experience theta too! [Anna is in blue italics, Pure Bliss reports in plain, old black!]

"Locked away in our theta, and inaccessible unless we have the right combination of other frequencies to access it, can be ANYTHING we are not in touch with that is somehow buried deep within out psyches - positive or negative. Theta is where we hold our stuff."


Primary Encounters with Theta-Land In round I my gut told me that I managed to 'resist' delving down into deep theta/delta in level 5, round 1. Yes I reconnected with my body and rediscovered Pain. Physical pain from all the bad stuff I have attempted to suppress and walk away from. Ouch.
Round 2: Along with 'Wise Anna', I am taking journeys into theta now and uncovering subconscious material that lurks within. I am using the emotional pain triggered by my current 'tussle' with those in authority who are abusing their power to retrigger bad episodes from the past. When I can embody (focus on feeling) the emotional pain, I take that as my impetus to discover what lies beneath, squirreled away in theta realms.
[Note the theta journeys don't happen while I BrainEv - I just flow with that. So what I describe are mental journeys I take - extra-curricular meditation for want of a better description.]

"Paradoxically, theta also provides the experience of deep meditation in a meditation brain-wave pattern. The key to the profundity, bliss and depth that people look for in meditation is in the theta waves. It is through theta that we make our strongest spiritual connection. In mastery, it is an extremely important brain-wave. Theta is the "peak" in the "peak experience".

My sessions with Level 2 are delicious. On an intellectual level I use it to 'top up' my calm-alpha state. Alpha is my mental spa. I get calm, mind-still but oh, so content = the Pure Bliss I set as my goal. Like a dip in a refreshing sea at dawn, I absorb my alpha and reconnect with all that is wholesome and good and content within. Today's session was A M A Z I N G. A whole new ball game of bliss - I am still wondering about it, is this the famous theta "peak experience" (see explanation above)? Did I get into a theta generalised mind-state and just bliss out? The sex post-session was the icing on the cake. Theta-inspired sex, a kind of tantric sex? For both of us.

"When you want to heal your body or your mind, theta is the place where the healing most readily enters your being and makes a deep, penetrating impact."

Ahh, yes, Anna. You are so right. In Level 5/round 1 I got a lot of healing but the process, what was happening, just went over my head. Everything ached, I did reconnect with chronic physical tension, emotional pain that got 'locked' into my muscles. Fight or flight episodes that caused me a lot of stress, fear and anxiety, but eventually came to inhabit my shoulders and neck, causing muscle tension. In fact I have recently become aware of how well developed my shoulder muscles are = good for 'fighting'? and my leg muscles = good for 'flight' running away'? The theta-driven healing came in a spontaneous 'knowing' of how to release - permanently release - the upper-torso tension through accupressure.

Thus Level 5 provided me with the theta frequencies I needed to heal. I dissolved physical locked-in tension and presumably emotional stuff dissolved with it. But there was no 'inner experience'. I came more and more to intuit that I wasn't connecting intellectually with theta, the BrainEv session slipped over my head. My thirst for 'depth', a genuine theta/delta encounter grew towards the end of levels 5 and 6, resulting in my decision to do the whole six months again until I am mentally fit enough to 'face' the full rigors of whatever is lurking in my theta sub-conscious.

"If we have something lodged deep inside, it is possible that the alpha brain waves retreat or diminish to protect the conscious thought process from being aware of this subconscious content. If I look carefully at the EEG of certain clients, I can actually see the subconscious content being hidden - scurrying away as we get closer - not wishing to reveal itself. Is it any wonder then that awakening the mind continues to elude us, if we are constantly averting our gaze from our inner wounds?"

Now here is the explanation I sought to explain my own experience of level 5 / round 1. My access to theta was barred. I wanted to access and release my 'inner garbage', but I lacked the ability to remain in theta. Blue and purple sparks flashed across my mental horizon during BrainEv, signs of theta waves being present..... but the content remained beyond my reach.

It was right to follow my intuition and do a second round of BrainEv. I have more understanding of what entrainment is about, what I want from it. My round 2 sessions are making me mentally stronger. I can enter theta now and remain there.

"The CONTENT of theta brain-waves only remains subconscious when there is no alpha present simultaneously to provide the link to the conscious mind. When you are producing the classic meditation brain-wave pattern of alpha and theta, you can get in touch with the most profound depths as well as have the vividness and clarity of imagery provided by the alpha to transmit this experience in a tangible way so that the conscious thought process of beta can interpret it, understand it, and act on it."

On an intellectual level, I 'know' that I am now mentally fit enough to romp and play in alpha (thanks to round 2). I can switch it on at will. I can 'go' there whenever I meditate. I need alpha to provide the bridge. Alpha is the bridge that allows theta material to cross from sub/unconsciousness into beta consciousness, ready for analysis and reprocessing. And the real magic begins here! I am now gaining growing competence in theta. This last week has been a treasure trove of theta exploration.

"I associate the height of personal mastery and intensely spiritual states with the depth of unresolved psychological material and inner subconscious wounds and imply that they come from the same [theta] "place". The theta brain waves can be the repository of years of "unfinished business". The fact that we have this "stuff" lodged in our subconscious may actually provide one of the biggest impediments to our personal evolution and natural development of mastery, because the mind plays games with itself to spare itself the effort and potential pain of releasing this material and making room for more creative spiritual content."

It is exciting to me to experience all the ways that I am now accessing the theta realm. Just a few quickies now, as I am tired of sharing (knowing this probably doesn't interest a soul beyond myself - so why waste all this time?

One theta precursor:
* During my daily chakra cleanse/charging session, while charging my chakras I slipped from alpha (very visual) into some deeper level (dark, profound and space-less / eternal). A massive firework display of theta: blue and purple dots, veins of mauve, flashes of blue and mauve dancing across my inner screen (eyes closed). I managed to 'stay' there, to 'experience' it, but I failed to bring anything into beta - just stunning visuals!

Dancing with Theta
Yesterday I had my first conscious journey into theta and I retrieved some "hidden stuff" and carried it across the alpha bridge and looked at it through a combined lens of beta (awake/alert), alpha (very vivid imagery) and theta (symbolic, and a 'grimy' story). That though will have to remain for another session here. I have run out of patience! I want to go on with my own story and save time on sharing the 'how' I did it.

[rchoates]

Wow, Pure Bliss!!!

What you post is so honest, so pure, and so REAL, it is indeed an inspiration!! I can't say this enough. I benefit from reading about your journey and what it means to you.

Have no doubt...what YOU share is important. I have learned from it, gained from it, and respect the time and strength it takes just to sit down and share what is personal. You have made a difference!!

I sincerely mean that!!!

Robert

[SoHum]

Heavens, I simply do not know where to begin. So many ultra-valuable posts in the last weeks!
Pure Bliss, your orchestral post had me composing a (virtual) symphony while I was reading. You had me dancing around the living room (figuratively) with your eloquent description of what we can achieve! How inspiring. Thank you, as always.

Robert, your description of your meditation process and living under a blanket of non-reaction sent me for quite a spin for a few days. I have been patting myself on the back for dealing so well with my, oh so many issues and you held a mirror in front of my face.  In an instant, I realized that I have not been dealing with anything but simply coping. All of a sudden I had the physical sensation of sheer dread in the pit of my stomach, combined with some fairly nasty temper tantrums (it IS a good thing that I live alone!) Needless to say, I have had to rethink my meditations and have begun setting quite different intentions.

Pure Bliss, back to you ………… I now have a set of Sleep Phones. God Bless the inventor thereof! My ears will be forever grateful. Anna Wise also has a firm place in my daily practice. She really provides fascinating new insights and I feel marvelously enriched! As to your description of our education system, I can only laud you for your courage. It is time for us to rise against the “Bloops” of this world and show them the ways of the future.


You wrote:
“In all the stories I like to read, the good guys always triumph. My life has shown me the opposite. Psychopaths are extremely powerful in their own inner-certainty. No doubts for them. Now, at a time of change, I will build a team of good guys, and maybe, maybe Good will prevail.”

For the last 3 years, I have been battling my own very evil Bloop and it looked like she was going to conquer. This psychopath would stop at nothing to gain – I don’t even know what she was attempting to gain and yet she was convinced that she was right. Then, out of the blue, she threw in the towel and quit! Although she actually should have stayed until end of June (Germany has incredibly long notice periods!), the powers that be decided to let her go as of yesterday! Joy, Bliss, Relief, RELEASE!! Pure Bliss, the good guys have prevailed!!

Week 3 of Level 3 still has me raring to go and I often have to hold myself back from listening to the track on a repeat basis. The effects on my brain are sometimes indiscernible and on other days radical. One session had my brain pulsating vertically from left to right rather than to and fro as with the tide. Was
it the left and right sides of my brain melding? Since then, I am feeling much more confident and genuinely optimistic (and yesterday’s news supports the optimism). My dreaming is more vivid than ever - although not yet consistently so and I am able to remember the smallest details. My ability to concentrate has returned tenfold, something for which I am extremely grateful. I'm no longer off on ten tangents at once and can bring one task to completion before rushing off to the next. I am convinced that BrainEV is responsible for this.

Thank you BrainEV and thank you all for your terrific posts!

I wish all a blessed journey.

[Pure Bliss]

Final Post for Level 2, Round 2

Robert and SoHum, thank you both for your replies.... it does help to get feedback. Writing posts is a time-consuming process and I sometimes feel it would be quicker just to note it down in my journal and be done with it. However the forum has provided the space for my own growth, so I enjoy giving something back if I can.

This has been a strange two weeks in the real world. I am at a crossroads, or so it feels. Kind of a suspended animation, just waiting, waiting, waiting..... for what exactly? I have significant resistance to writing on the forum, I am irritated with 'me'.

Round 1 vs Round 2 - a comparison
In round 1 I just slipped on headphones, lay down and went with the flow. And what a flow it was! In round 2 I know much more about entrainment and specific frequencies, and my brain is fitter entrainment-wise; I can stay awake and present throughout, so my experiences are different. I am also gaining expertise in understanding my own brain and its particular brainwave patterns, good and bad. I recognise my own internal brainwave symphony (mix of beta, alpha, theta and delta), and I am learning to enter specific states and remain there for a while. 'Wise Anna' says we need to learn the signposts, or the signature tunes of specific brain states, so we can then follow these pointers at will. In a sense, this is happening for me.

To recap, Round 1 was a rollercoaster journey, I went where the track took me, I was a willing participant but powerless, I let the journey unfold. Round 2 has me in the driving seat a lot of the time. The soundtrack is like the road, so I do follow the road, however I now know what I am looking at (experiencing) as I drive along that road. Being awake throughout helps because I can add beta waves into the mix (think a bit and in comes beta), so I can interpret and understand what is happening. I pass through recognisable and recurring alpha states (i) of intense visualisation/sensory potential, (ii) calm, centred, peaceful states, (iii) contentedness - pre-bliss. Now in level 2 I have become much more friendly with theta, what it looks like in my mindscape, the sensations, the purple beta landscape I can now maintain (almost) at will. Here too in theta resides Bliss - and I can gather this magnificent sensation and bring it through to surround me for hours after a session. I am also starting to really communicate with my subconscious (and maybe unconscious?), and this is surprisingly simple. It is fun, and my inner dialogues and symbolic insights form the core of my innerwork at the moment.

[Note to anyone who would like to do the same as me: You will have to invest in 'Wise Anna' so you recognise a specific brainstate when it occurs. Her guided meditations are also good as it teaches the 'language' of inner dialogue - and after all we do want to find out the hidden treasures and release the hidden skeletons that reside in the sub (theta) and un (delta) conscious. That is a prerequisite for any entrainment experience, imho. You can rely on BrainEv to take you on the journey, but the trick is to find out where the hell you are  .]

On a bizarre aside:
Sometimes it seems to me as if I have a personal relationship with 'Wise Anna'. I know she died a couple of years ago.... however it sometimes feels as if she is there coaching me. Ideas come to mind, I act on those instructions, and yet another inner landscape becomes navigable. Today I wondered how I would communicate my entrainment experience, only to find Best Beloved had been reading Anna and left the book open with what I have been trying to express:

"I (Anna Wise) have seen that there are many complex and valid varieties of beta, alpha, theta and delta combinations that represent a state of awakening. [...] The prerequisite for an awakened mind is to be able to have an open flow of information between the conscious, subconscious, and unconscious mind.

The awakened mind brain-wave pattern doesn't always mean that the individual is aware that he or she is awakened [...] But it means that the potential for access to higher states of consciousness and a spiritual awakening is present. All he or she has to do is open up to it and learn how to use it.

To use a twenty-first analogy, producing the right brain-wave pattern is like having the right hardware. When you have this particular state of mastery, all you have to do is add the right software, use the right content in your mind. Using this state of consciousness in the right way will allow you to have greater access to your own inner abilities and powers - to truly have the mind of a master. (Awakening the mind: a guide to mastering the power of your brainwaves; page 8. )"

Well said, Anna. This is my experience too. I am soooooo grateful to Anna for paving the way. I am opening up, especially to the symbolic language of theta (delta?). I am certainly learning how to turn up some frequencies and lower the volume (significance) of others.

" Masters have a particular combination of frequencies that allows them to experience the flow of awareness between the conscious, the subconscious, and the unconscious mind. The combination of brain-wave frequencies that forms the basis of mastery can be learned."


Today's BrainEv Journey: some insights in my personal quest for inner wisdom

Before I relate the information I unearthed during my BrainEv session, I need to provide some background information on myself. A goal I have is to recover 100% from post-traumatic stress disorder. What's that? "Any traumatising event can implant mental hair-trigger memories in the amygdala (emotional brain). [...] Victims of violence, physical or emotional, feel themselves to have been intentionally selected as the target of malevolence. That fact shatters assumptions about the trustworthiness of people, and the safety of the inter-personal world. Within an instant, the social world becomes a dangerous place, one in which people are potential threats to your safety. These vivid, terrifying moments become memories emblazoned in the emotional circuitry. [..] Thus the traumatic triggers become mental hair-triggeers, ready to sound the alarm at the least hint the dread moment is about to happen once again." (Emotional Intelligence, p.230)

Being "intentionally selected" is certainly key to the trauma in my case. Since the events, I have left Ireland because I could not escape the constant reminders, I needed physical space and removed myself so I could start to heal. However, even in France, there are some 'hair-trigger' events that trigger really horrible sensations. To be honest BrainEv has 99% returned me to a space of safety, calm, the hypervigilance is much reduced (betafrazzle), and I sometimes sleep through the night. A miracle, and potent enough to make me want to understand and master this entrainment stuff from A to Z.

OK, back to BrainEv session.
I set an intention prior to the session. Why? Well I don't want to take 'random hikes' into my sub/unconscious. No, I have specific hot spots I want to visit, understand and heal, and of course, I want to make permanent contact with my highest potential. My pre-session intention was to gain information/understanding of my past (why was I targeted? why specifically me? why did they seek to destroy me? why did those who could have intervened, not do so?) so I could let it go.

In session, I had a 'comfortable flight' descending into calm alpha, some well-being, a bit of bliss.... purple flashes of theta.... injecting a hint of beta, I posed my question: "What do I have to do to let this whole trauma resolve?"

Reply. DEEP HEALING. Two words. Straight out of delta (at least I believe so because to date my theta is symbolic, non-verbal). This was accompanied by a sensation of 'knowing', a 'trusting', which I have now (finally!!!!) learned to accept and not question.

Deep Healing. What's that? Hmmmm..... hard to think, conceptualise, so I inject a little beta....
"Deep Healing - yes, deep wounds need deep healing"....... drop back into session ..... and a bit more beta......
"Do not seek the answers in your immediate, traumatic past.....  leave the past ..... the answers lie with the future......" .... drop back into session, deepening.... deepening....
..... I visualise myself (good old alpha!) doing yoga poses to massage my inner organs, stretching and releasing.....  yoga? inject beta to interpret....... Ah, yes, I have just bought a Kundalini yoga DVD to tone and cleanse chakras...... Is this why I bought it? To deep heal? To soothe and release pain caught in my innermost organs: adrenal glands, liver......
..... dropping back down...... deep healing is done within.....
Beta interjects: "Yes, this is why I am so engaged with chakra cleansing and charging (thanks Ganesh!) over the past month. It is clear now. Chakras have no specific location, they are amorphous, we can visualise them, sense them, clean and charge them, but they are SYMBOLIC energy centres AND THETA MANIFESTS THROUGH SYMBOLS. AND THETA IS THE REALM OF HEALING. Self-healing occurs in theta (thanks Anna!)."
..... Aha, deep healing done at chakra level is what it will take to remove the roots of this trauma .....
Now.... what was that about not finding the answers Why in the past but the future? ...... calm..... safe.....well.....content.....  need some beta for conscious clarity...
"Remember the Quantum Jumping advertisment? The guy suggests visiting your 'expert' parallel self, interview him/her, get 'expert' advice...... but deep heal first.... and then visit your 'healthy self' and find out WHY this all happened to me...."
Thereafter I just played around with theta. The purple light shows on my mind-screen. Hold it, see it but don't look at it directly, let it just 'be'..... I remain with the slowly evolving theta flashes, sparks and swirls just enjoying the display..... such wellness..... such content..... such comfort..... total well-being.....
The session ends.
I start up another BrainEv session back to back and just savour it, keeping my two 'solutions' in beta (it's quite easy to submerge and the whole lot slips back into the subconscious, out of reach)..... three hours later I still feel deep, cocooned, in touch, whole.....

Chakra Cleaning and Energising
A note on this. Two exercises, first the cleaning - very visual. I feel that my visualisation is so acute and far-seeing - another BrainEv spin off. The more I do the exercise, the more creative I become in its use. I feel I could write an entire book on chakra experiences. Then I start the charging..... wow! this is powerful. I am getting the hang of this. Two days ago the session was so strong and hot in my crown chakra that I had to resort to paracetamol! Now I carefully close my crown chakra post charging. I walked around for two days with a six inch energy-channeling hole in my crown (skull). How is it possible that two simple exercises can deliver the force of a volcano? There is high energy here. I am gaining expertise with daily practice. My heart area feels just spendid and rejuvenated and down right glowing. My crown chakra can open 6 inches wide! My root chakra is strengthening. In my imaginings my creativity resides in my sacral chakra (site of my reproductive organs - a place of procreativity and my seat of creativity), and during the sessions I am astonishingly creative in what I clean out and also what I energy I direct where and for what. This is a whole new inner life.

Thanks, Ganesh!
If I keep this up for a year, I will be squeaky clean, totally energised and damn powerful. I understand how manifestation lies in the chakras. Wow! And this is just the tip of the iceberg. These things really are just as powerful as we allow them to be. The key to everything, BrainEv and Chakra stuff is regular practice.

Blessings to you all. I sincerely hope these mental musings benefit someone out there.

[SoHum]

Dearest Pure Bliss!

I sincerely hope these mental musings benefit someone out there.


Your musings are worth far more than gold, believe me! I was going through my own case of PST yesterday and started reading every single one of your posts from the day you started (I only managed to get to page 11 as your posts are rather prolific :-)  but do intend to continue) and what absolute gems you have strewn for us Newbies to gather! I am so grateful for your detailed revisions and helpful hints. I know there are others who have posted detailed accounts as well and I intend to review those as well. The only problem being that there are only 24 hours in a day! :-)

The one jewel I took with me for the coming week is to observe how the remaining 23 1/2 hours between BrainEV sessions pan out. Especially now where I have reached a personal boulder in my road, it will be interesting to see if the entrainment is really bearing fruit.

So to you, Pure Bliss and all other avid forum contributors - please continue! Your experiences as "mere" users are oh, so important for all those to follow.

Thank you and great blessings.

[rchoates]

Lovely and insightful as always Pure Bliss!!

There is so much energy available to the mind/body, and like our muscles, if we exercise that energy on a regular basis, with whatever practice, then the healthier we are, and more of that energy becomes available. If you don't move the body, not only will it atrophy, but its full potential will never be glimpsed. It's the same with our mind and our energy.

Awesome post.