Just to update the thread.. Two weeks into the rapid restart having finished level two I must say I can certainly feel the benefits and the clear relaxed mind coming back to me!

Look forward to the end of the month to see if I feel like I can pick this up again properly at L5!

Day Three of my Personal Retreat.

Again perfect weather, strong sunshine, so I am just about to go for a good walk.

After all the interruptions and upheavals (from outside sources) yesterday, it is still and quiet today.
I am in a less scattered state of mind, no sense of hurry like yesterday.
The silence has descended... I wait to see what lies beyond.

It is the first time in my life to do something like this. I have always treasured the idea of a retreat, but not got round to it. Now here I am, time dedicated to just being me.

I stayed with the wiring - mental rewiring metaphor Robert brought up yesterday. Had to think of Haywire (remember the psycho in Prison Break?), saw myself stripped of all my 'normal armour' so the real haywire brain programs and outdated wiring was visible to me and the outside world. Haywire - now it's time to Rewire.

I am following intuition. What comes to mind, I do. So far this morning I returned to my cranial massage I intuited in level 5 to deal with pain. BrainEv, level 4 as intuition suggested the vast thunderous landscape was appropriate. Two sessions of Sadhguru's Isha Kryia breathing/meditation (it is free to download) felt fantastic; I have never connected so peacefully with my breath. I finally felt my energy vibrating just below my navel as he promises will occur.  Chakra cleansing and charging. Felt good and calm after all that.

Now for un bon promenade au soleil! The oak forest here is alive with birds so I will go and experience that. Natural forests resonate strongly with me and I am lucky to live in a place that has masses of natural forest.

Letting go of some of my past is what I hope to achieve. If you have a moment, send me a ray of

Falling asleep won't help either. Sorry!

Sometimes we all fall asleep during these meditative sessions. It's completely natural!

But we shouldn't do that as a matter of course. The point of BrainEv is that you are consciously *listening* to the material. This helps to "work out" the brain, to use a simplified analogy.

When you're on your way to sleep, the brain isn't responding in quite the same way.

Meditation however often "feels" like sleep and can certainly bring more powerful benefits.

Why not do this instead? Wake up half-an-hour before you normally would, and listen to the CD then. You'll find you still receive all the benefit of sleep, without the necessary impatient need to actually be "doing something else" -- as you'll be just a little too tired and sleepy to try

My great pleasure.

You have effectively summed up everything I wrote in 'The Secret Art of Self-Development' -- but much more eloquently!

If you ever tire of your normal work, I'm sure you'll be head-hunted by the Reader's Digest

Bless you for that wisdom, Robert. So beautifully expressed. So far the sun is shining brightly, and all is very well. No resistance yet and not a cloud on the horizon.

Yes, you are right. I am inviting a greater level of awareness into my life - the worst of it is I DON'T LOVE my patterns, but need time to create new and better ones.

I have a lot of wiring to pull out and replace. Emotional, those to do with self-respect and esteem, self-defeating habits.... funny one of the tasks my husband has to finish in the house in Ireland is the electrical wiring.... so a physical parallel with the closure of Irish chapter being a prerequisite for a new chapter in France continues.

Now I am off to tackle the bathroom - to create a clean space for my body-hygiene and self-purification.

I have put a picture of a personally significant 'Open Door' in my journal (it looks out at a glorious skyscape); another open door to release the old and welcome the new by my front door (a French medieval arch and timber door looking into a verdant garden), and the next one will be placed in my spotless bathroom when I've finished cleaning.

Again, Robert, thank you for your gentle wisdom. It means a lot and I shall print it out and stick it into my journal later today.

To love and purity for myself and anyone reading this! Purest Bliss

Insight: I shall look out a piece of tatty wiring to put on my personal alter as a reminder to "pull up the emotional wiring, untangle and release. [If you want to see the true horror of tangled wires, crossed wires and mental static, look at these photos I found:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/josephholsten/galleries/72157622535044238/
My guess is you may want to untangle a few wires too!]